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Our little O is 2.5 months old! There are moments at 2 a.m. when you feel like time drags on and you will never get sleep again. But then I look back and can't believe my son is almost 3 months old. Time does go by fast......most of the time.
Owen gave us his first real smile at 6 weeks and hasn't stopped since. He has started making fun cooing noises and loves laying under his jungle gym play set. Who knew staring at dangling things and hitting your hands against them could be so fun?! He has also started sleeping like a champ. Last night he slept from 8:45 to 5:45 and then went back to sleep after he ate until 8:45! Lets hope this continues.
He still has some fussy periods each day. He has what we call "special places" in our house. These are the places that calm him down when he is fussy. One of these places is on a fluffy rug on our bathroom floor while the bathtub water is running. As soon as you lay him in there he calms down. One day as I laid beside on the floor I wondered why he liked this so much. I discovered that when you lay on the floor you can feel and hear the vibration of the water running through the pipes below the floor. Apparently O loves this sound and feeling. One night he was super fussy as we got ready for dinner. I picked up Owen and told Bri to grab our salads and meet me in the bathroom. We ended up eating dinner as Owen happily lay on the bathroom rug. I realized that I would do anything for this little guy but also would do crazy things for a moment of peace and quiet and an uninterrupted dinner. :)
Some days I have wondered if I could be enough for my son. What if I made or make mistakes in taking care of him? I realized and am learning that God gave me Owen and his personality to teach me more about Himself. Owen is perfect for me and for our family. In the same way, God gave us to Owen with all of our goodness and sin to ultimately lead Owen closer to Himself. I may not always be enough for my son but God always is. Brian and I may not be perfect, but we are perfect for Owen and Owen is perfect for us.
Sometimes when we are in the midst of a hard time it seems like it will never end. But I am realizing that morning sickness fades away into a distant memory, contractions eventually end, babies do stop crying and you will eventually get some sleep. When the hard things end you are left with valuable lessons learned, and in this case we are left with a beautiful baby boy who at this moment is laying on the ground looking at himself in a mirror and smiling. :)
